how can i avoid this feeling?

running in circles once again i cannot write a single word to the ones i want to talk to, i can't keep my eyes on a single point and i feel im tied, all around me i feel tied.

i feel guild, i feel anguish, i feel sadness, or a bitter taste in my mouth

today i put my head on the pillow and fell sleep very deeply. then i woke up with screams.

i feel tired i feel scared i feel i don't know what will i do and there still remain 5 days since this hell ends


and yet i don't know if it's going to end


feel like dying, yeah, that's the way i feel.




floating downwards free fall fast